Randomness from the Mattyverse

Friday 3rd May - Good versus evil.

Goodness, morality, badness and immoral are all social constructs. What I see as immoral you may see as moral, values held in the 19^th century some of us still laud, some of us find reprehensible. How do we arrive at such places in life? Why should I be made to feel bad because I live my life by a different moral code? We get disappointed in friends when they don't meet our standards, and I know I have high, almost impossible standards which no-one could be realistically expected to keep but knowing that does not make it any easier. I expect to be treated the way I treat people but I conveniently ignore the times I have been selfish or not there for someone when they have needed me. I know that makes me a hypocrite.  However, over recent months I have learnt a lot about myself. I finally feel like I have an understanding of my head, it doesn't make it any easier because it's almost out of my control.  However, now I know do I share with all? or do I just let those I trust know? I also realized why some people have never seen certain sides of me, and the only way I can explain it is because they act like a light.  I seem to have veered off course from what I was going to initially write about which was good versus evil.  Do we all have good and all have evil in us? Or may be what I wanted to write about was me and how my heads work and how I see life.  I used to think I was "good" but I have found recently that I veer more towards what may be considered bad. Or maybe I just enjoy life and roll with it and don't over think things.